Posted by Brige | Posted in Staring a Family | Posted on 02-02-2010
What life will be like in five or 10 years time… We are at the point in our lives where we are talking about having children (of the human variety) and I have finally realised what it means to be ‘ready’ to make that change. I have known I want kids for my entire life and have watched so many of my close friends fall pregnant and give birth and I had always wondered if I was ready too? I have only just realised that I haven’t been ready until right now.
Not long ago I was speaking with a friend of mine who’s 12 month old son was sick. She was saying that she would do anything to take it away from him and it rips her heart out to see him like that… And at that point I got a pang… And I longed to feel like that for someone. Not just anyone, as I do for my husband and family, but someone who was mine and someone who I had no choice but to love and care for. That’s the point that I realised I am ready for the unknown.
When Mic and I got married my family made a bet on how soon I’d fall pregnant. I won that bet as its been over 12 months which is what I said haha! I need to claim that $1000 HAHA!
Anyway, I guess I’m just rambling about desires etc but there is a reality to it all also. I am constantly told by people I know and don’t know that we are far too young to have kids. I don’t believe we are too young, as I assume I just don’t feel as young as people see me. Example: When I was 18 I thought I was super old and mature. Looking at 18 year olds now I am shocked that I thought that of myself! So I do see where they are coming from but I am not sure how much of a difference that makes to me.
Michael wants babies more than anything which is actually a lovely feeling. I see so many people who are afraid to ask their husbands to begin a family for fear that they will say no, or men who just bluntly refuse to have kids “until they are 40″, so I am a very lucky girl indeed!
Anyhow, I’m going to go watch Grey’s Anatomy with Mic in bed – he’s finally gotten into it yay!
“Who ever loved that loved not at first sight?” – Christopher Marloe
Brige xx
